Judge of Trust..

Trust carries the meaning of to believe in something that is sincere..

sincere means something from the bottom of the heart..

I always had a life principal which is...

If you need me.. I could perform beyond 100% for you or at my best possible capability...

but in return.. I hope you could treat me with a sincere and warming heart..

I dont mind if you wont be able to help me up anytime from now...

but when you got something... which could be share..

do share it..

The moment u need my help.. I would try all the possible way to make sure the things reaches you..

but when u got the valuable stuff.. I got nothing in return..

I force you to share.. but when I need something..

people whom knew me would know what I need at the right moment..

but u failed at it...

anyway.. the incident is part of the history..

but I will never forget..

Jen

Confusion....

In life we will always face challenges and decisions...

but somehow some of them are always on the difference scale..

which is correct or wrong..

Indeed.. if you do have high morale values..

I believe most it are correct...

but somehow.. there are still some of it are wrong..

when facing the wrong ones..

I felt very confusing..

Somehow the wrong ones is matching a positive morale values

but it was deem wrong..

thus.. I cant understand..

Maybe a book name "Life's Wrong and Correct 101" might helps...

Jen

Washing it away....

Heavy rain filled with sounds of droplets..

Thunders roars like lion in the cage...

Its raining heavily..and the thunder is horrified..

Can the rain please wash away all my worries..

For the whole day I had been doing mistakes which I had never done before..

from making lots of 1st time mistakes in my piano playing..

to tipping over a bowl of soup...

My twisted mind is tying me up..

I am now left only 9 days....

Still having stacks of notes and exercises to go through..

Jen..

Tiredness of Challenges..

SPM is drawing near..

Studying is a must..

Stress will be faced..

Success would be waiting..

4S's Theory..

Going through all the challenges to acquire success makes me feels exhausted..

Valuable lessons is what I learned along the way..

My mood would still fluctuate in no sense of direction..

But I still have to continue with determination..

Hope that my determination would bring me to greater heights..

but climbing up the flight of stairs is tired..

at some point of climbing up the stairs..

my mind wound have gone blank for a moment

Negative thoughts strikes and brought me down to the deepest dungeon..

where I struggle for my way out back onto the stairs..

at the moment of looking for solution..

I felt tired and stress out..

and I wanted to get someone to talk with.....

Jen...

Again on Bravery...

AHHH!!!!

What had happened to me..

I had promised to do one particular things on my to do list when I'm 17..

which is donate my blood..

I had missed it for a total times of trice!!

1st time which is below age..

2nd time is lack of bravery..

3rd time still lack of bravery..

AHH!!!

why did I just have the will and just step forward and donate..

My heart were pounding when I passes by the donating area..

The wish of donating is there..

BUT.. my mouth to speak up and ask isnt there..

AHHH...

I promised myself to fulfilled my "To Do - Donate blood" by end of 2010...

Jen

Final Moment of Life..

Years of her existence..

Till the moment of last breath..

Heart seems to be crack..

Emotion were dull..

One of my family member had just passed away..

Seeing her struggling for the last breath of air..

and the clock ticks has come to its end..

We cant do anything but to wish her having a better life somewhere..

Her soul is always here..

We can only feel it without seeing it..

Hope she is living happily somewhere..

Everybody will learn a lesson when someone is gone somewhere..

We learn how to treat and appreciate a person existence...

When they are here..

We should always do our best to give them when we possibly can..

Not giving them only when they are already cover with cloth and wood..

Sincerity can only be shown by heart.. not money and greed..

Wish her having a better life somewhere..

Jen