Step.....

2 different planet brought through by fusion...
but a smaller planet has either initiated the fusion or destroy the fusion..
I have been glowing for a while
but I don't know how to rotate myself round the axis of it..
Have you know what I am intended to speak without a voice but warmth?
I can't speak for myself as my voice doesn't move..
I can only send out my warmth and feel....

Submerse in myself...

Little things growing through the place you went..
Blooming with beauty even if you look back..

Planting seeds of flowers before you go pass..
Even if you fall, it would still be on me..

Looking at your face of cheers and laughter..
Had just knew that I just did something that make you live with the memory.
and how my close soul surrounded me and supported me..

Once heard you were not feeling well,
hope that the heart and bless within it makes you feel better and warmer..

Not mentioning we are together as told
Perhaps it was to be away from the limelight and be it a time between to think..

Perhaps time was the determining factor for you and perhaps myself too..
but just I would like to say that..
I am always open for you when you feel comfortable and warmth..

and.. Have a memorable day and hope that the things, cake, suprises and laughter brings you a brighter day ahead...

Jen...

Sunshine and Rain..

Looking at the gloomy and stormy sky for the day...
It brings me a day of cold and quiet day...
Misty sky is covering part of what we can see..

Soothing music bringing in scenes and scenes of events..
But things in scenes just going on and I got no idea of doing it...
It came in as a state of internal confusion and hope that someone is there to shine of light.

Facing it is like a highly complexity event
But going through such complexities would lit up a candle...
A candle where it was lit constantly for a very very long time to provide warmth and bringing it in as one.

"Google is not the world's best searching 

but there is something better where everyone have and has been constantly searching for something"

Hope you would have a pleasant moment of understanding what I wrote..

Jen Hong

Feeling complex and ill..

One night of deep thinking and worries..
Next day I was down with serious cough and flu...
With non stop of coughing till teary eyes and flu with mucus flow like broken tap...

Sometimes.. Life is just pretty much like DaVinci Code.
When you get through everything in life, we are pretty much similar to DaVinci or perhaps better...
Who knows?
In DaVinci Code itself, perhaps clue can be found and eventually solve the code.
but life is kind of similar yet different..
You may have got your clues.. but even if you are there finishing it.. what you get may not be what you intended.. It is just always changing..
Days of thinking since I was back in Ipoh has always been stimulating my mind to get through every piece of things and understands it..
I did go through it.. but in my point of view.. things is not simple..
But I would believe that one day.. when it was done..
It would be such a fulfillment of life.. and this is what I hope for..

When I am ill.. and somehow sitting here writing my post.. With a blanket wrapping me..
it is like I am always on search for something.. for warmth and trust..
Family is there.. but there is something we would still on search for..
It was instill in the mind but things never seems to be easy nor difficult..
But... Can I get it??

If you are reading.. what do you think??

Nitez..

Jen Hong..

Passion and Love

Often in Life,
When we are doing something we usually focus on whether the result is a positive or negative one.
Yes. We do even myself did that for certain cases too.
But soon after going through a very inspiring drama, it has kind of changes my perspective of life.
on top of that with strengthening of belief and values from a few other books.

Doing things is always regards as Passion and Love for it.
Without that, outcome is just nothing.

In Life, we often want things to be Fast, Simple or whatsoever with regardless of what goes in.
But when it truly comes in such that you as yourself would just be immerse into the things you do and you would do whatever to made it come true, you are in a state whereby you are doing with your heart.

Give good, you will be good. 

Often when I see certain people, life of theirs doesn't just look to be as what it should be. 

Often they just did something which they never love in just to gain fame or perhaps they don't even think of the consequences. 

But just to say that, sometimes its good to be yourself as it was somehow the best expression you could ever give to someone. 

People will appreciate it, but sometimes it was never shown.

Yes. They will but just it was kept in the heart instead of words. 

"Life is just Meaningful, Beautiful and Fulfilling when you put in Passion and Love"

Nitez...

Jen Hong

Same yet Different..

Looking at scenes and scenes of different things..

With far more critical of comparison and analyze...

The difference just seems to looks more and more obvious and different..

Not to say that different was either bad or good.

But it was the elements that made up something.

This mixture of elements is far complex than making a new material.

Among materials, Each and single materials is different no matter how you mixed.

Each of them are unique and no each is the same.

Just like pieces of puzzle.

Each piece of puzzle has its own contour of shape.

Some may protrude more while some may have have cutting in more.

but when two piece of the same contour matches.

it forms a tight bond with perfect fitting and never easily separated.

"Life is like choosing puzzle,

search through tons and tons of it before you get the correct piece of it"

Nitez..

Jen

Are you there?

Everytime when I see you smile and laugh.. I felt so happy..
Your expereinces of how your will changes you from makes me feel that u are such a strong will to make full effort for changes..
Seeing you putting in effort and becoming more confident was such a pleasing moment..
When you are away.. I worried and hope you are still feeling good..
Every effort I made was just to make u feel happier and better.
Though I distance myself for times but I still care for u from that distance.

Though my effort wasn't like others but that was the unique me when I cared for someone..
When I 1st cooked a dish whereby u had eaten, I felt so happy seeing you enjoying the dinner.
It may not be a very fancy dish but it was indeed a dish which cooked with heart.

Though everytime going out.. we are quite often 5 of us.
but I do wish for some time for us to share and enjoy.

Perhaps, now may not be a suitable time in such everything was happening in such a fast pace, thus I still just be away for a while and get some time in between for the situation.
but for always just to share with u that my blog is active and hope that u would have read my msg to u.
and thank you for doing the preparation for such a meaningful birthday for me. looking by ur effort in the kitchen for the red eggs I can't express my appreciation but ur effort is just meaningful.

I don't wasnt to rush but hopefully it doesn't fall apart and capturing every pieces of the moments together.

Heart

Jen Hong

Mechnical and Mortal

Chasing dreams with day of effort with sweat and tears wasn't an easy feat.
Breaking down in the midway where no one will able to fix it but to lead you back on feet to move closer to the goal.
Backing on feet and running towards the goal yet the shine and rain was so intense that melt you down.

Mechanical stuff wont have that, they wont sweat or tears if there were work 24/7, breaking down would be fixable with a mechanic and wouldn't melt even though under intense condition.

Chasing dreams and meet up expectation is like part of life, never alone and always crowded. But when chasing dreams, I found out that I wasn't a robot whereby I can do what I are told to do without breaking down, but I am a human.

Coming such a long way to here when my dreams lead me to, people were supporting me when I go, yet I could still fall on somewhere as I cant meet my expectation.

Jen

A Rope..

A Rope can be so strong that it is able to hold you up in the air.
Yet when you kept pulling it everyday for so hard that it was left with only a strand.
The strand is there so vunerable that even a slightest pull will just drop you down..

A rope which are broken will never be the same no matter how you try to fuse them back together. Nothing can turn it back into its original state.
But there is always someone there whom are able to hold the rope together for you.
I wasn't the same as before but the person is there and left something meaningful and lasted forever.
The person whom hold the rope together is someone which are special and they are the person whom are there when you need them and are always open to listen to your bottom heart...

Thank You, Evelyn...

Nitez..

Jen

Speeding Ticket..

Clashes in life such as conflicts or somehow you get mad or being mad at wasn't something unusual... It does happens no matter bad or good, it happens for a reason...

"To Learn from it"

I couldn't believe that some sort of sparks was able to ignite such a powerful thrust to change something in its path heading towards something which are not that desirable under that situation.

Partly, as a personal view of both side of it. I felt sorry for part of my act and his act.

But at the end of the day, I felt that I should have to such that try to lighten my feet on the gas pedal and start enjoying the scenery of life after speeding for such a long way without even slowing down.

Though I mean slowing down is like a bus slowed down at a bus stop to pick-up its commuter and together reaches the destination. But the heart and soul remain efficient and impromptu to recover from any pitfall and achieved my target within time stipulated.

"Is my life moving so fast until I only slow down when my tyre punctured after hitting so many souls in front of me?"

Nitez..

Jen

Lesson for Life.

Life lessons happens at every moment of life and good thing is we wouldn't have to pay for the school fees with money, it just require us to learn from it or we will never succeed in it..
We learned to forgive so that we can move on with our life without any doubts of people's mistake
We learned to forget so that we will never suffer from people's mistake in our life.
We learned to learn so that our past is our guidance and future is our children.
Never forget to learn, so that life would be such a meaningful place of testing out ability.
Never complain that it was too easy, as there isnt difficult or easy but only would you do it and do you want do your best for it.
Never learn to forget your yourself, when you forget yourself no one will ever be there for you to share part of their soul for you.

Learn that doing once a day is called as Following
Learn that doing 7 days a week is called Keeping Up
Learn that dong a month is called Doing Great
Learn that Doing a Year is it a Companion
Learn that Doing it all the time it is that you are in it and it will never leave you until you leave.

"Live to Learn, Learn for Life, Life for Success"

See yea Soon..

Nitez.

Jen

Power of Someone...

Life in my place is quite tense and stressful..
Everyday is placed with traps and rewards all round the place.
but this is the 1st time I was facing head-to-head with another Virgo.
I don't know why....
He just seems to be just kep assuming he is smarter than me.
but I cant really seems to be agree..
I only agree that I may have a different stronger ability than him.
We may not be the same, but please dont be so ego and claimed that you are better than me..

We are human.. I put you as my model only for certain aspects but not all of ur aspects..
some of your aspects are plained negative..
I cant understand you...
is it like as describe in horoscope where virgo is able to run rounds its enemy but how about virgo- virgo?? what is the outcome of it??

sigh..

Jen

Your Intention....

My art and plans was about to turn into a final product...
but you have keep telling me that there is a big flaw in the centre of the art..
What are your intention?
I cant really read your intention,
are you signal to signal me that there is a flaw which could distruct my effort at this obstacle?
or
you didn made it through the obstacle thus you pour some negative words to bring me down?
Either one of this too I cant understand about your intentions.
But I was kind of down and sad with this condition...
You are deem to be one of the best in the class but your attitude I cant really much appreciate it.

Though by far over here, I really cant help of making much trusted friends and friends whom I really want to be in they somehow have a more harmonious air where I feel good to be in. Thanx to my bunch of friends whom are around me and I really appreciate all of you all. You all are great.

Jen

Art behind a Soul

An Art is consider to be a very unique piece of masterpiece.
But somehow the difference between 2 types of arts are one is drawn with creativitity but one is drawn with their soul.
The emotion of the art is just vast and broad.
from Sad to Happy, Sweet to Sour and many more where words cant describe.
It isnt easy to just draw a piece of art with just the emotion we wanted to drawn when it comes to this kind of art, it is a comibination of all kinds which what makes us unique to others.

To let you all here to know a bit what my art looks like.. I will reveal some but it is not a complete art till you feel it... my art is somehow like a person standing on the of the cliff leaning towards down the cliff but holding on the rope above me where oil is applied onto the rope.
This is my current art over here.

To one of my friend, I know you looks to be very tired and stressful.. but just to let you know, your laughter and cheer did cheer me up over here and I was glad to know you. Your artpiece I may not be able to feel but be happy and don't give up you still lead a very meaningful and beautiful life and cheer up.. ^^

Jen

Can I?

Since I was in Singapore, life has been challenging as everyday is like riding on a canoe on a rough and violant river to reach my destination.

Along my journey I have met so many positive yet negative energy.
In the positive energy I have made myself to have better self belief in life that I will do better on this new route and path, Make my route and skill better and better and to proof negative energy is there as nothing.
In the Negative energy, some might have just want to win over me for nothing, words of disencouragement and egoistic people whom are there to made you the same low level as them instead of help you perform better.

but all the way I still kind of believe myself instead of other people...
In my studies, I want to get at least GPA of 3.8 so that I stand a chance to enter local U over here to further my dreams or life is my path would be like at the waterfall and fell and down deep without surfacing again.

I still
"Trust No one but yourself, Make somehing in yourself, Suceed dreams of ourselves"

Jen

Caution : Unstable...

Friendship is something like a very complex chemistry type of bonding...
It doesnt have a fix produce nor any type of co-exist material to bond it until they create the chemical themselves.
but one thing is that this type friendship chemical requires constant flow where the flow of the chemical cant be stop..
it have to kept flowing till either they are gone or you are gone or the tie vanishes.

but somehow in life, words is kind of powerful where it could actually just plug the flow and the bond wobble and turns unstable or just kaboom and "poof" gone everything..

Do you want your friendship bond to be the strongest bonding ever created or just something like unstable bond and "poooof" gone everything?

Value the friendship you are having, even the great scientist on earth cant make any type of bonding like this but a normal civilans can thats why we call friendship is one of the greatest ties anywhere.

Best wishes to you all...

Good Night..

Jen..

The very first time....

Well.. it has been my 4th day in Singapore and it was my 3rd day of orientation..

fyi... 3rd day of orientation is from 9am -10pm...

I was a very long day but at the end of the day.. it brings alot of satisfaction.

I and my teammates have tons and tons of fun completing the team building games.

some of the games too are brainstorming for me and my pals..

such as making a protection layer for an egg to be drop at a certain height (140cm)

and our creative idea has brought us 2 points even before we start the test..

and could you believe.. they have a concert on the rooftop of the campus.

it was the lawn on the roof...

and guess what... more than a thousand of people is jumping on the roof.

it was fun, fun, fun and FUN..

though the roof shakes when we jumps but we have a full 2 hours of fun

from singing along with the singer to dancing randomly with the DJ mixer music.

well.. monday is my 1st day of class..

hopefully my education in Singapore will bring me a new start to my education of life..

bye.

nitez.

Jen

The Final Destination....

Counting down for the final hours of SPM result release...

Last Smile? Last Sob? Last Stress? Last Joy?

nobody knows what is going to happen on that piece of paper..

our future pathway is pretty much determine by that piece of paper..

Our education... our career.. our partner.. our family.. it is almost everything of the future..

How to cope up with the stresses building up in the mind while the clock ticking to its point..

the stresses is just plain immense..

Pray for me.. and Hope for the best..

Jen

Values...

Values carries alot of meaning..

Moral values.. Money values.. Human values.. and etc..

I wouldn't list out all.. but the above 3 values are the main things..

When Human comes in for Money most of them might lost moral...

money values is often considered as the most influenced values among the others..

It controls a person emotion, personality and even life..

someone would go to the upmost to attain money...

like annoying someone or just work their best to the money..

but I would only emphasize on the "annoying" type..

the "annoying" type is the worst as they would scramble your life for their own sake of advantage without even forging out a single drop of sweat to attain it.. and would just sat by the side of the seas of sweat and blood for u.. or we should call it spoonfeeding..

So, if u are rushing to attain the money infront of you..

try looking around the peoples around you..

you might have "annoyed" them without noticing or u may even hurt them in the process..

so.. be good..

Earn a living with sweat and blood without losing your moral values..

Jen