Handling your emotions and relationship.

There and foremost, to go into the almost lovers relationship is nothing easy. The energy to fulfilled the emotion is always there.

We have been going out for more than a year. I could be the innocent lover part and trying my best to give in whatever I felt best. It has been going all right all the time. I even thought of our future if we were to be together. But, things between us is broken and our relationship turn cold.

To you my male buddy, I do hope you could just owe up what you have to say. I confessed my feelings in our group and yet you say nothing about it when I confessed. You have said that you are just friends and with no emotional relationship. So, you want to mean that going out together just both of you having meal is not dating? going on trips together isn't dating? and

Come On man, if you dont called that dating, what on earth you called that?
I still believe its an outing if its once or twice, but multiple time and multiple occasion and you are now going onto overseas trip together. You still going to admit that you have no feelings.
I am utterly and deeply disappointing to have such a buddy like you.
Yes, you have done things that are right in the past, but you have done this utterly wrongly and disrespecting me by saying "I forced the girl to accept the relationship". I did tie the girl down nor I blackmail the girl, I openly ask her out for meal, dinner, movie and outing and she agrees with going out.  Just me mindful of your words that I forced her to accept the relationship.

If you ever to be together, I give you my wishes.
But remember , you will eat your own words for not being honest.
As friend of 4 years and counting, I am just disappointing with your attitude.

Job Frustration

Life could have been much easier if bosses are more responsible with their actions.

2016 have been the roller coaster ride of my career of having 2 different job in a year.
I would have to say quitting and joining a new job could be a pleasant and unpleasant feeling.

My 1st job is in a small company, with only a few people in it. It all started well and I enjoyed it as a journey. I meant how bad could it go with a company only few people and everyone is like a family.
Well, the answer is it could go wrong if the boss chose to go the wrong way. Things went spiral when the company strike a delay in funding and it went spiral down further when the boss act as if I am the bad person when I am trying to bring sales to the company. Thus, therefore quit.

Rainbow and Sunshine after getting the 2nd job in a startup.

I joined the 2nd company, in my mind it would be such an awesome moment to join a startup and having the good times with a bunch of awesome mates. Its really awesome to be in a startup and I even get to go to a work trip to Europe. It was so much fun and I really really enjoyed it. But one thing kept coming up is when I would get my salary. Counting a month and a month and a month.
for my 3.5 months of work and received only 1 month of salary, everything goes spiral down again. Request for salary went unheard and excuses and the boss kept selling hope and equity sharing just to keep everyone around.

My experience and advice to bosses,
At any point of time when an employee ask for money after working for months, don't leave us unheard. We are having a very hard time to just come and work and still thinking about our financial issue despite having a job.

For me, I burnt out my savings to keep working at the job and with almost 2k of money owe to my friends and family. I left the job and still having a court inquiry to the company to settle my salary claims.