Leaders...

Well.. standing there as a leader indeed is something different from my past..

Leading you all is always on the priority list..

and by believing "Leader are to create more leaders, not followers"

I had to give all my best possible solutions to make all this reality..

Being part of a circle, means you aren't alone in the circle..

many parts will form a complete and perfect circle..

As a leader.. I am demanding myself to understand all of you..

Being a leader who cant understand its people shouldn't be grant the title "Leader"

To stick the part of a circle together, which means, there should be cohesive force in between to make this happens..

and cohesive force is something we formed daily.. It accumulates..

When we meet you.. saying "Hi" is part of it..

Treat me as a someone you knew. not the opposite.

Lastly, holding a post in hand..

Holding the post as a leaders is still having the same title part of the circle..

it applies to everyone.. as we work as "One"

Thus, demanding a post in the circle should be a silent as

There is a leader within your own-selves ..

"Value it"

See yea..

Jen

Stone above Talent..

Definition of the word "Talent" means natural ability..

Differentiating Talented and Myself is something which I am always looking forward to..

Somehow, I don't even know that is Playing Piano my in-born skill, Talent or something I acquire along my life..

When people see me.. even the close people..

they were commenting..

"Thats Not your cup of tea"

Well.. I really Dont Know.. its perplexing my mind..

Looking from the in-born side..

"People had already got wall of awards and I haven got even 1"

Looking from the Talent..

"People with that kind of talent had already succeed"

Looking from the Acquire along life

"People had acquire what I dont have long ago"

I was doing really hard to find myself in the Music within Piano.. along with my Fingers..

and Dont pour chilled water onto something I was in search..

I had already way behind the state and was chasing back my lost...

I needed much of your courage and support..

Nitez..

Jen

Bravery...

Last Saturday..

As I was going round Jusco..

I was such in coincidence that they are having a blood donation campaign..

right in front of my when I was coming down from an escalator..

Well.. talking about blood donation..

I still remember few months back..

When there is a blood donation campaign held in my school..

and donors below 17 are require to have their parents sign on the form..

My parent did sign the form when I passed it to them..

and I was preping everything to face the Donation day..

such as enough sleep, having a better yet nutritious breakfast and others..

Going into the hall was a heart pounding moment..

BUT!!

Just when I was filling up the form - on the birth date column

I was rejected..

due to Underage.. and that time was June and my birthday is end of August..

Well.. everything got it 1st time..

But I cant believe that..

I didn go for the blood donation held in Jusco..

As I am eligible for it since my birthday had passed and My dad was with me..

sigh.. Donating blood was already on my To-do list since I was aged 15..

but it still haven been achieved yet..

Hope to get it achieved before a new resolution begins..

bye...

Jen

Learn How to Drive..

Waking up myself from comfy bed is hard..

But I am still looking forward to the stuff I am going to do..

Is to Learn How to Drive..

Today I attended 3 hours of Theory and 3 hours of Practical on Driving..

and I would say.. driving is Fun but tiring..

Looking at it isnt the same as doing it..

When I was in the lecturing hall for the 3 hours of Theory..

I felt that it isnt that bored compared to the 5 hours on Driving Rules and Regulation which I attended 3 months ago..

and the class is crowded for this time..

there are about 40+ future drivers in it..

Well.. the listening part is over..

Its time to get on the wheels...

My instructor brought me to the closed circuit for my 3 hours of Practical lesson..

and I got on a Kancil for the first 2 hours..

hmm.. I didn realize that.. the Cabin size of a Kancil is SMALL...

I adjust the side mirror of the left side by sitting on the driver seat..

then... I was going round.. round... round the track to train my steering, clutching and accelerating...

then its time for some more challenging task.. the initial thought..

3-point turn and reverse park..

doing it a few times and I would say.. it wasnt that hard at all..

ok.. its time for the slope stop&start..

that one is the tricky part..

but still it wasnt that bad if you have good foot coordination..

And Walla..

I got my "L" license..

prep-ing to face the road warriors.. xP

Nitez and sweet dream..

Jen

You are not in it..

Indeed all my friends and family does mean something to me..

no matter who they are...

But sometimes there are a particular ones who does makes me classified the ones into different place as compared to the others..

The most obvious reason is Annoyed...

When I chat with the ones.

I don't really get what I am doing with the time I spent on the chats...

Its like... out of my mindset..

Probably its due to the age gap..

But I really don't know what its in your mind as one of my friends..

I don't get what you want...

Maybe you would feel that I am mean in this..

Well, instead of getting forward with my time on this..

I prefer to get somewhere with my time on some of other things..

At least I get a better control and feel on what I am doing...

See yea...

Nitez..

Jen

Original...

Well.. its kind of odd of having writing my blog at 2.30 am in the morning..

with my blurry and tiring eyes..

It still kind of odd..

Sometimes when we created something which is appealing to ourselves..

so we decided to share it..

But, instead of being admired by people..

it was gone through the editing by just a bit without even leaving the box of concept of the one who created it..

It just an eyesore to me seeing that..

There is always a purpose for me to do that..

Which is I want my work to be seen..

For years, my work hasn't been seen..

I just want my work to be seen.. not to defer you from making changes to it..

Its that endorsing my own work with my name on it is something to me..

nites..

Jen

Finally....

After 3 weeks of stressing, thinking and figuring.

Trial is finally over and I am glad that its finally over..

Having 24 papers of 11 subjects is way way way.. tough..

and sitting in the exam hall for like hours is very hard indeed..

but I was over with my school trial

I still had my MOS powerpoint to be taken at 8pm..

and I took my exam in a hand chilling and shivering moment once again like my previous MOS Word...

since the class was less people when I arrived earlier on that day..

I sit beside my step-sister as to give supporting to each other..

we still managed to work it through as I started the exam earlier than her...

during the exam.. it was a tough one.. I was stuck with 2 question without a clear answer..

and finally its over..and by click the "done" is the most tensioning moment..

I got 933 out of 1000.. which is still way beyong the passing marks which set at 700..

but as said.. instead of jumping for joy..

she saw that my eyes went red after seeing the score..

Well.. indeed I was filled with disappointment when I saw the score..

as I targeted 1000 for this time exam..

well.. thats a night filled with emotional moments.. ..

see yea.. and nites..

Jen