A brand new experience..

Today is the 2nd time I attend a meeting..

this time the meeting agenda which consist of discussion of the upcoming events, new committees and prep for upcoming meeting..

Well we start of with another self intro by advisors..

and followed by the nomination of the candidates for the committee post..

we start off with the president post..

and I was shocked and kind of surprise when my name was being nominated..

soon after the nomination and the voting is being started...

Just after my name was mention..

I saw seas of hands being raised..

well I was being chosen by them to be the new president..

Well.. being a president is a all new experience to me as I had never hold a President post before..

and having about 20 members to be lead by me..

since I was chosen by them..

By means.. I have to work out my best to lead and bringing the club to the upmost

and succeed in the arena..

its a sleepless night for me..

see yea.

Jen

The Day..

Yea.. I am now officially 17.. A year older..

Anyway...
This year birthday was kind of unusual as I was having exam on my birthday as opposed to school holiday during previous years of my birthday..
But nothing stops me from enjoying on this meaningful day..
which is 25th August.. and the meaningful time is 10.10am..

Also, thanx to everyone who wishes me on my birthday..
it means a lot and meaningful to me on this special day..

Celebrating my birthday with my family is meaningful..
Since birthday marks a spot in the family history..

Here are some of the moments I had..

A picture of my family..

(Dad, Mom, Bro and Me)

A Picture of me and my mom....

and not to forget..

My Piece of cake with part of my name on it..

Well.. Thats the meaningful day I had gone through..

"Memorable Meaningful Day I had"

Jen

Focusing....

Did I focus at what I should accomplish??
Did I accomplishes something??

Well.. Sometimes I felt that..
I didn't focus at what I wanted it to be...
Till I actually lost focus in the middle of my path into it..
It was like walking into the lights but it went off in the middle of the way..
I am confused in the middle of the way..
I am scared that it didn't lead me to my dreams..

Could it be due to my instinct??
Could it be due to my mentality??
Could it be due to myself??

I really don't know why??

Am I focusing too much in accomplishment??


Jen...

Limelight....

Somehow I seldom mix with a bunch of peoples which was a bit or off from my circle..

I really don't know why...

I just feel a bit uncomfortable mixing with..

Indeed I was invited to a party..

But after awhile I ran off..

I just felt awkward on my 1st step into the party...

Although it wasn't a party like nightclub style.. it was just a normal party with Barbeque..

I just felt awkward..

I felt sorry for leaving the party....

But I just cant stand the awkward feelings in myself..

But one thing true is..

I was indeed looking for corners once I enter his house..

It just seems to be a natural reaction..

Anyway.. I would like to thanx him for inviting me..

and sorry for leaving..

See Yea..

Jen

Speech and Sensitivity....

Somehow... being speechless is something good in life..

such as being speechless, we won't regret at expressing something we are not intended to..

or something that will hurt someone feelings..

or something we even get fireback from people if the words express are too harsh..

I really don't quite understand the words I express..

Is my words really that harsh until you got to fireback at me??

or the sensitivity level of myself is so sensitive till I cant even handle a word from you??

I really don't know how to handle it..

Maybe..

By not expressing any words and comments will reduce the hurts and pains of all...

and might bring a better day to somebody..

Jen...

Life in another way...

Well.. when we used the term "naive" we are usually in the situation of madding at someone..

Is it?? Hope I'm correct...

Some how, after watching a video..

It makes me feel that..

Life doesn't have to be always- serious.. strict.. boring.. negative..

The video makes me think of..

With a life filled with a composition of laughter, naiveness, childishness and some positive thinking..

We could success in life..

I saw all of it in the video.. Isn't it amazing??

Life aren't boring and dull if we actually make a change at it..

Even though everything is just in a video..

but it shows that she is just plain amazing at life..

"Live with Life"

Jen

Do you??

It was quite a heartache seeing someone doing vandalism towards the property of some others people..

It could be mine, yours, school, public or anyone and anywhere..

Do you feel great from spoiling something of some others people??

and How do you feel if someone is spoiling something of yours??

Well, Its saddening for me to see things around me being spoilt by people..

They can do whatever they want on others people property instead of their own..

Do you draw on your bed or your bedroom wall??

If you don't, why do it to some others??

It belongs to all of us...

We share it..

We are responsible to take care of it..

Why cant you do that??

"Make a change"

Jen

Words...

I really wanted to throw something to myself..

I really wanted to make myself clear of what I'm doing..

I really don't know what I am doing now...

Can someone just throw something at me and wake me up...

I don't want to said something which might hurt someone else..

I don't feel alive when I expresses something which might hurts someone..

Can I just run straight into a wall??

I don't know what I can do...

Could you forgive me if I said something wrong??

Realizing that people around me is so broad which I cant control...

May I stay in a circle with only the people which I can only accept??

and block out everything else..

I'm so confusing now..........................

Jen

Fill in the Blanks..

To Improve Myself and the People around me...

Well.. People around my circle might sometimes ask for my opinion and favor for some of their daily tasks..

Actually... I don't know how many people in my circle is actually reading this..

But just to let you all know.. I don't mind actually doing favor or giving opinion to you all sincerely..

I do give my give my opinion and Favors sincerely without any doubts.

But sometimes.. My favors do contains a bit of "fill in the blanks" to actually let you all to think over it..

I'm not purposely creating troubles for you.. but just to let you to figure out your own problem solving skills to get over the blanks..

By the way, I know.. I'm not the best person around.. but still I'm doing my best to assist..

So I'm sorry for peoples around my circle if my words sometimes is a bit harsh.. Hope the person is reading.. but I just want to let you to figure out your own way...

Enjoy the starting of the weekend..

Jen...

Round the corner..

Wow... Time past my life at great speed...

I didn realize that I haven updated my blog for more than a week already..

Tension and Stresses is growing up in my head as Trial is round the corner..

But yet I still slack around here to do my blogging.. Lol!

Didn I spent enough time at my studies??

I really don't know about it...

I really wanted to achieve something to makes myself and my parents proud of it..

sigh.... Can I?

Jen