Its been a while holding onto such emotions.

Thru and forth, its been about 2 months.
Its time to probably just leave the thought of the relationship aside and move on with my own life.
I tried to take the memory out but its thought and it just creep back once a while.
Although I felt much better instead of feeling sucks like the previous month.
I do hope both of you go well and get along together, but I hope I wont be the one seeing those scenes.
You could call me nasty or something but I just dont want to pickup the memories of what had happened between us.
People do tell me that remember your friends for the stuff they did right instead of the stuff they did wrong. Yes, its logical but yet I cant bear to go thru what I am facing. I am not narrow minded kind but I just don't want to see those things pass thru my eyes. It hurts me a lot.

Continue to be together and love each other. I give you my blessings.
I do hope this would be the final time I make grumpy remarks regarding this.

Handling your emotions and relationship.

There and foremost, to go into the almost lovers relationship is nothing easy. The energy to fulfilled the emotion is always there.

We have been going out for more than a year. I could be the innocent lover part and trying my best to give in whatever I felt best. It has been going all right all the time. I even thought of our future if we were to be together. But, things between us is broken and our relationship turn cold.

To you my male buddy, I do hope you could just owe up what you have to say. I confessed my feelings in our group and yet you say nothing about it when I confessed. You have said that you are just friends and with no emotional relationship. So, you want to mean that going out together just both of you having meal is not dating? going on trips together isn't dating? and

Come On man, if you dont called that dating, what on earth you called that?
I still believe its an outing if its once or twice, but multiple time and multiple occasion and you are now going onto overseas trip together. You still going to admit that you have no feelings.
I am utterly and deeply disappointing to have such a buddy like you.
Yes, you have done things that are right in the past, but you have done this utterly wrongly and disrespecting me by saying "I forced the girl to accept the relationship". I did tie the girl down nor I blackmail the girl, I openly ask her out for meal, dinner, movie and outing and she agrees with going out.  Just me mindful of your words that I forced her to accept the relationship.

If you ever to be together, I give you my wishes.
But remember , you will eat your own words for not being honest.
As friend of 4 years and counting, I am just disappointing with your attitude.

Job Frustration

Life could have been much easier if bosses are more responsible with their actions.

2016 have been the roller coaster ride of my career of having 2 different job in a year.
I would have to say quitting and joining a new job could be a pleasant and unpleasant feeling.

My 1st job is in a small company, with only a few people in it. It all started well and I enjoyed it as a journey. I meant how bad could it go with a company only few people and everyone is like a family.
Well, the answer is it could go wrong if the boss chose to go the wrong way. Things went spiral when the company strike a delay in funding and it went spiral down further when the boss act as if I am the bad person when I am trying to bring sales to the company. Thus, therefore quit.

Rainbow and Sunshine after getting the 2nd job in a startup.

I joined the 2nd company, in my mind it would be such an awesome moment to join a startup and having the good times with a bunch of awesome mates. Its really awesome to be in a startup and I even get to go to a work trip to Europe. It was so much fun and I really really enjoyed it. But one thing kept coming up is when I would get my salary. Counting a month and a month and a month.
for my 3.5 months of work and received only 1 month of salary, everything goes spiral down again. Request for salary went unheard and excuses and the boss kept selling hope and equity sharing just to keep everyone around.

My experience and advice to bosses,
At any point of time when an employee ask for money after working for months, don't leave us unheard. We are having a very hard time to just come and work and still thinking about our financial issue despite having a job.

For me, I burnt out my savings to keep working at the job and with almost 2k of money owe to my friends and family. I left the job and still having a court inquiry to the company to settle my salary claims.

情人节

花没有给错人，这束花就是给你的。

也懂你也很好奇谁给你送了一束花。

希望你会喜欢我调选的花，也想了好几天了。

我没把我名字写下，也有我的原因。

希望有一天你会懂送花的人是我 或 有一天你猜的到把。

这是我人生第一次送花给人，想了很多很多很多。

可能对一半上的男生不难，对我来说是需要一些试考。

花看下去也好鲜，也和相片的差不远。

就当时一个我给你的惊喜。 

好想你

你以决定了不会回来新加波，我们见面的机会也变的很少了。

我们发展的机会还会春在吗？
远距离的发展会实现吗？
有时的感觉给我觉的比较情迷，有时觉的非常的遥远。
我也很犹豫，不懂的分析了。

我可能真的是一个对爱情没经验又不太会转的人。
我自希望用我的真心的去表达我自己。

想回两年前，我觉的后悔了，为什么当初没和你在一起。
像回当初是很好的机会我们可以发展。
可是我就把这个机会弄丢了。想回真的好疼。。

如果师傅没和我说，我可能也真的不懂的珍惜。
也其实真的很想懂的你回喜欢我这个人吗？

情人节还有几天就要到了。。
很想买花送到你的办公室，可是又不懂得应不应该。
如果你收到花，你回觉的尴尬吗？还是回很开心呢？

我们会在两千多公里的距离继续发展吗？
我的答案是非常非常的愿意去付出给这段发展，你愿意吗？

＊不懂的你会不会找到这一个blog，希望又一天你会都到。

Distance..

I felt that I am more of the less expressive kind of guys..

Sometimes, I really felt that I don't really know how to really make you smile more often or console you when you are down..

I usually only able to do like greet you when I wake up and before I go to bed and hope to keep you accompany. 

The feeling for you is getting more and more intense after you left to go back to your home. it has been almost 3 months since then. 

I remember back then out chat app were having much more of things to talk and we have more topic and we also spent time together for meal and walk about. 

I really blame myself that why didn I noticed you much earlier. Why didn't i notices you before you came to my home. I didn't do good enough to get close to you. 

With you back at home and i am always finding ways to improve this relation and develop it. I do hope you have the same feelings for me as we have to cross the barrier of distance during this test. 

Piss Off

I really don't know what I can say about you.

I have always been telling myself to be calm, peace and never hate anyone.
But with your attitude, I really cant sitback myself and throw my hate away from you.

What are you so damn bastard of doing such things.. I really don't you and who am I anymore.
And I had always wondered why some people, despite is minority would still kao tao and agree upon your decision.

So many people and so many damn things you have done and many people had hatred and anger had been strike.. BUT you had never learnt.. What the F*** are you...
Cant you just make the world a bit more peaceful.. by just not screwing it you.
Piss upon you my friend.